My very best to take in all this.

Thinking of her made me cry. Today was her funeral, today was the last time her body is kept, today is the last day i could see her but i didn't went to her funeral. I regret it.

I am a bad friend, no i don't deserve to be your best friend.

I should have not quit and stayed working with you longer. I should have reply your text more often. And because of my lazi-ness, i regret doing this to you and you are no longer here to hear my complaints about boys, girls or whoever. I will really miss you. Its like i am missing half of my heart. You tell me everything, What is it you are not telling me? Damn girl. how am i suppose to stay strong when my room is filled with things that you bought for me or things that we have the same? Please, at least tell me whats the cause?

PLEASE.